How the heck do I know if I'm in the flow?

So... I've been having some interesting conversations around trust this week and I'd love to share some of the insights as well as my personal experience with going for the heart's desire, no matter if it seems possible or impossible, makeable or not - because the first thing you learn when going with the flow is that you have to give up some of the control or what I call false safety.

It's a risk that you make. And it will need all of you, your heart, your passion, your love, your clarity, your intention, your mind and body to be IN!  Because life gets different when you're in the flow. You experience and live life in all the nuances, tastes, experiences, and textures. In one way you have to be clear as fuck and in the other, you have to surrender and accept to really not knowing. And then do it anyway because it feels right. 

Do you think I wasn't surprised when I suddenly felt the call to come back to Zurich and have a home base after 4,5 years of traveling non-stop just after Christmas in 2019 before all the madness surfaced in 2020? I mean was like: "...really heart? All you wanted is to travel, be free from any of those things you have to do over there, don't you remember how bored you were? And not so inspired..? And it's freaking COLD????"

And the message kept being crystal clear and I just applied for the creative space in the old town of Zurich and booked a ticket from India over Bali (Cacao Stop) into the Unknown - because I didn't know if I'll get that space but I had a good feeling because the desire was so real. Like my soul craved it. My heart knew. For everyone that likes rational statistics: There were a few spaces available in that house and over 60 people and collectives applied for them!

I canceled my retreats and came back into winter time and I mean you know what happened in March? Now over 7 months later, I feel content here. Which still surprises me. I've been riding my wave and it hasn't been always easy because nothing went like planned