Yeah, so damn tired about all the imposed assumptions being projected on to me.
I just wanna be free and explore what's beyond those constructs, templates, and imposed limiting ideas of life and how it should be lived. I'm tired of not being asked what I actually want, what makes me tremble, what makes me feel in love, what I imagine, and whatnot. Can there be more options for me? To explore. To immerse me in it? To lose me and find me in everything and everyone? Can I be all I am and go for what feels good? What gives me a high? Can I explore the depth and enjoy its darkness lf breaking open as much as the blissful orgasm?
What about meeting ourselves and each other with more curiosity? Openness? Commitment to not look away & burn bridges when our shit is being triggered? To explore what we say to want when shit hits the fan?
When we assume, we're cut off from living life fully because we're not in life, we just project some weird inner concepts and try to rationalize play, exploration, love, connection, creativity, and who we are beyond what we're told to fear and feel worthy of less if experienced. I wanna be free. I want to enjoy life! NOW. Without fucking timeline and future projections based on my trauma that only occurred because I was told that I'm not whole and worthy if XYZ happens and the only ABC will be my only remedy.